Blog Therapy

When I'm hurt I won't show it. I tend to keep it inside and I'll vent to somebody completely unrelated to the original pain later. It's bad for me. I'm trying to give it up. Frankly I have not had the best day and it was made worse by the fact that yesterday I had an amazing time. Have you ever had a friend betray you?? I have, more times than I can count actually, and although I have plenty of other friends and a completely fabulous best friend each betrayal always cuts deep. But, as I have said, I keep the pain inside. What exactly is it that I am afraid of? That I will be hurt even more? Heartache can be dealt with. It takes time and distractions until you can't remember why you were hurt in the first place. Am I afraid that it will be seen as a weakness and somebody will exploit that. Probably. At least, that's what seems to make sense to me.

 

Personally I think that being betrayed by a friend is awful. Worse than awful, it makes you think about everything else going on in your life and it makes you doubt. I hate doubt. It's worse than fear.

 

I need to change. If only so that I'm not as afraid to say when I have been hurt. Maybe it will help me heal quicker because, the sad truth is, I've been betrayed by friends so many times I can't help feel that this won't be the last time as much as I would like it to be.

 

Okay, I've been whinging. Annoying I know but sometimes you've just got to vent and I needed that. So, if anybody has read this entire post thank you and now I think that you should go and read something less depressing haha. I hope you have had a better day than I have.

 

Learning From Mistakes

I've done it again. Everytime. It's sort of exhausting now. Once more I took a chance... and it turned out to be a HUGE, GLARING MISTAKE. Sigh... and yes the capital letters were neccessary because this mistake hit me pretty hard. Typical. If you are like me and the chances you take turn out to be mistakes here are my tips for telling the world that you can deal with anything it has to throw at you:

 

1: Some sort of ice cream, cake or something else which is wholly bad but ultimately delicious helps but make sure you save it for the really bad mistakes otherwise you'll never get anywhere.

 

2: Make sure that you have a friend there willing to slap you in the face and tell you to get up out of your pit of despair and have a good time instead (my friend is more than willing to help me out in this respect)

 

3: Alcohol usually makes things worse unless it is taken alongside a bunch of friends who will then amuse you for the rest of the night (and proceeding nights as the case may be)

 

4: Don't agonize over your mistake for too long or you will never move on, instead hold your head high and stumble into your next mistake instead with the hope that things will get better

 

I guess that really my point is that your situation is only as bad as you think it is and if you convince yourself that it is actually nothing then that is how it really is. As I am sure I have said before (and you are probably getting sick of reading haha), don't be afraid to take chances but it doesn't hurt to have a contingency plan in place just in case.

 

My friend told me about this song a ocuple of days ago and while it may not be completely relevent to everything else I have ranted about so far it is still a great song so I suggest that you check it out :D